Music Tag Uli: Bond

Again, again, again.   Kulit ba?

RULES OF THE GAME:
Choose a singer or a band. Answer using ONLY titles of their songs. Tag 6 more people!

Artist: Bond

1. Are you male or female? Senorita.

2. Describe yourself? Explosive.

3. What do people feel when they're around you? Scorchio.  Fuego.

4. How would you describe your previous relationship? Duel.  I’ll Fly Away.

5. Describe your current relationship. Quixote.

6. Where would you want to be now? Space.  Strange Paradise.  Midnight Garden.

7. How do you feel about love? Kismet.

8. What's your life like? Viva!

9. What would you ask for if you only had one wish? Victory.

10. Say something wise. Shine.

RULES OF THE GAME:
Choose a singer or a band. Answer using ONLY titles of their songs. Tag 6 more people!

Artist: Matchbox Twenty

1. Are you male or female? Girl Like That. Last Beautiful Girl. (Walang kokontra.)
2. Describe yourself? Smooth. (Santana to, pero sama na rin.) Last Beautiful Girl.
3. What do people feel when they're around you? Dizzy. High.
4. How would you describe your previous relationship? The Burn. Can't Let You Go.
5. Describe your current relationship. Mad Season.
6. Where would you want to be now? Million Miles.
7. How do you feel about love? You and I. The Only One. Like Roses.
8. What's your life like? Like Roses.
9. What would you ask for if you only had one wish? Real World.
10. Say something wise. Damn. If You're Gone.

Anyone who reads this and wants to do this is tagged. :)

CNB Who?

So, I've been watching Samantha Who to break the killing spell I've been watching the past month. Three seasons worth of Criminal Minds, a season of Dexter and a few episodes of 24 is enough to give me a murderous intent. I feel like I'm already channeling Dexter Morgan and that I'm about to hack someone any minute now. Right now I’m fantasizing slicing this person beside me in half with a Hattori Hanzo sword.

Samantha Who and Coffee Prince are nice breaks from all that blood. But watching Samantha Who made me remember something I thought of: if there was a way to remove anything from your memory, would you want to forget certain events that happened in your life, much like the plot in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind? Would you want to forget certain people who hurt you? Would you want to forget the indiscretions you did? Would you want to relieve yourself of the guilt from doing wrong against others?

I toyed with the idea of losing my memory for a while. The grand plan was to bang my head against a wall until I lose consciousness or the wall crumbles, whichever comes first. Then when I wake up, I would have lost part of my recent memory. Then I would not feel uninhibited by all the negative conditioning I’ve had. I would be free of all the mistakes I’ve made. Sounds like a plan, right?

I thought it would be fun to forget certain things like forgetting I have allergies. Or forgetting I don’t know how to swim or ride a bike. Or forgetting I cried over a cheesy anime. (Yes, I did. Now shut up.) Or forgetting I used to wear hideous clothes. (Hmm, I still do sometimes.) Or forgetting the wrongs against me. Or forgetting the mistakes I’ve made. But then, who’s to say that I won’t make the same mistakes? Even if I lose my memory, my basic nature would still be the same so I am still inclined to make the same decisions and commit the same mistakes.

The beauty of hindsight is its perfect 20/20 vision. We don’t need to second guess the outcome; we’ve experienced it first hand. The events that happened in our lives, no matter how hurtful, would contribute in building our character. I’m not implying that I’ve monopolized all the hurt that life has to offer, far from it. I’ve had a pretty happy life with the occasional bumps and bruises here and there. What I’m saying is when I think about it, I don’t want to forget anything. The life experiences I’ve had is as much a part of me as the dark circles under my eyes. I wouldn’t want to trade my bumps with someone else’s.

Amnesia, anyone?

Who commits suicide? No, I'm not thinking of committing suicide. Naitanong ko lang naman.

I became interested in this because there was a news a few days ago of a Pinoy who committed suicide here in Singapore. (And I just watched an episode of Criminal Minds where the UnSub makes it appear that his victims commit suicide.) His friends say that he is a happy person and it is very unlikely that he would have taken his own life. Or maybe, his friends were not able to see the tell-tale signs.

This brings me to the question: who commits suicide? Who are predisposed to take their own lives? What kind of stressors would trigger this kind of thinking? Is the fact that a person is in another country away from his family would trigger this? Or that he had just broken up with girlfriend? Or if he is not satisfied with his job? Or he can't stand his job because he wants to avoid someone in the office? Or he is in debt?

The data I've seen in the internet says that men are more predisposed to commit suicide than women. Is it because men tend to keep their emotions bottled up inside? Do women have better support systems?

If you live in another country away from your family and close friends, where would you find a support system? The new friendships you make may not be as close or as deep as what you've had before. What if the closest connection you've made in this new place was suddenly taken away from you, what would you do? What if these friends doesn't want you in their lives anymore? What if you felt betrayed and used? What if you want to move on but you can't?

I read somewhere that people who tell other people that they plan to kill themselves are less likely to do it than those who keep a brave and happy face. We should be kind to everyone we meet because we don't know what they're going through as much as they don't know what we're going through.

Ayan, kakapanood ng Criminal Minds. Hehe. Samantha Who na nga lang papanoorin ko. Hehe.

Bakit ako PO ngayon?

Appraisal time once again.  Gaah...

Your psychology, follows your physiology.  So very true.

Alas, I am done with one sentence posts.  I think.

Desperately trying to deaden my senses...

Mastering the art of pushing away...

Is it a good enough reason to quit?

It's been a long, drawn out process...

I think someone spiked my water with caffeine.

Why am I posting one sentence posts?

Sometimes, having a very refined intuition can cause you pain.

I'm having the effects of caffeine without drinking anything caffeinated.

Sinagutan ko to dati last Aug 12, 2003 (in blue). Sasagutin ko uli (in green)... May nagbago kaya?

1. If you were to die in 10 seconds what would be the last things you would say?
Because the Lord is my Shepherd… Psalm 23.
It was a good life...

2. If you were a thing, ano ka?
A laptop.
Still a laptop.

3. Have you ever been in rehab?
Nyak! Hinde ko naman pinangarap yun…
Hinde pa rin...

4. Where is the strangest place you've had sex?
Anong tanong to?
Anong tanong to?

5. What would you do if you woke up as a member of the opposite sex?
Go to uncharted regions where no girl has gone before…
Magpa-spa...

6. If you were to be executed tonight, what would you request your last meal to be?
Meat lover’s pizza, Blueberry milkshake, Blueberry cheesecake and bottomless iced tea.
Ben and Jerry's New York Super Fudge Chunk Ice Cream

7. What is worse, being a crack whore or a whore's crack?
Pareho lang…
Crack whore.

8. Tingin ninyo, do penguins have knees?
Tanong ko kay Jinggoy…
More than 4 years na, hinde ko pa rin natatanong si Jinggoy

9. Did you ever pet a rat?
Ayoko naman ng daga!
Ayoko pa rin...

10. If you were a porno star, what would your porno star name be?
River… walang surname. Engk, hinde ako creative eh.
Delilah...

11. What's better, being born with wings or having wheels for legs?
With wings!
With wings pa rin.

12. Do you sometimes wish you were gay?
Hinde ko naman naisip yun…
Naisip kong maging gay man. Because all the good men are either taken or gay.

13. Which celebrity would you like to smack in the head? why?
Kobe Bryant. Stupid, stupid!
Heath Ledger. Stupid, stupid!

14. Anung klaseng food ka?
Pizza!!
Considered bang food ang ice cream?

15. How do you feel about body hair?
Depende, may binabagayan naman yan eh.
Depende kung nasaan...

16. If you could find out when you were going to die, would you?
Nope. Baka mapaaga dahil sa sobrang kaba. Hehe…
Maybe. Para mapilitan akong gawin ang mga gusto kong gawin.

17. Marcos o Erap?
Nyak…
Wala.

18. You're dead. You're having coffee with God. What do you ask?
What is the truth about religion, spirituality, the Bible and all those spaces in between?
How do You do it?

19. If you had to perform a strip tease, what song would you get naked to?
Loving you is easy ‘coz you’re beautiful… or any song by Kenny G. Hehe…
Super freak... ala Little Miss Sunshine. :)

20. Do you have to go pee right now?
Nope.
Nope.

22. If we were monkeys, would you eat bugs out of my hair?
Nope. I’m a classy monkey. Hehe…
Classy pa rin ako...

23. Ever thought of taking a bath with someone, sino?
Haha… For me to know and for you to find out!
Si Samson... (dahil ako si Delilah...)

24. Is committing suicide because of love a bad idea???
Oo naman no! You should not let other people decide on how you are going to act!
Natural...

25. If you were neck deep in shit and I threw a baseball at you would you duck?
Hinde no. OK lang ang bukol kesa naman deep shit!
Makakaduck ka pa ba nun?

26. If you were a candy what candy would you be?
Ferrero Rocher.
M&Ms... Melts in your mouth not in your hands...

27. Can I bite you? Please?!
Aray ko. Basta wala kang rabies.
Aray... Masakit.

28. Describe your most embarrassing experience.
Sobrang dami eh. Nalaglag sa bus. Nalaglag yung sword ko in front of the guest of honor. Napaiyak on stage in front of many, many (as in sobra) people. Madami pa but I chose to block it from my memory… :)
Marami pang nadagdag dyan...

29. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?
Psychologist… Hehe…
Syempre pareho ang sagot...

30. If you could instantly change one aspect of your body, what would it be?
Pumayat ng konti.
Pumayat pa rin...

31. What is/are your favorite bands?
Jars of Clay, Matchbox20, Bond
Jars of Clay, Switchfoot, Lifehouse, Train

32. What is your favorite website?
Google, Yahoo
Google, Kerygma

33. Suggest a book for me to read.
Inspirational books and books on spirituality (by Paulo Coelho, Deepak Chopra, the Dalai Lama, Norman Vincent Peale, Thich Nhat Hahn, etc…)
Plus books ni Bo Sanchez, Malcolm Gladwell, John Maxwell, Joel Osteen, Tony Robbins, Wayne Dyer, etc...

34. Have you ever lied to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Hehe…
Hehe pa rin... Hehe...

35. Have you ever cheated on someone you were going out with?
Nope.
Nope.

36. If you could relive any period of your life, what would it be?
High school! Walang masyadong iniisip sa buhay.
Oct-Nov 2007

37. If you were an animal, what would it be and why?
Dog. Loyal ako eh.
Dog pa rin. May rabies ako eh.

38. What's your favorite quote/saying?
Gam zu le tovah! (This, too, is for the best!)
Gam zu le tovah! (Everything that happens is for the greatest good.) Iniba ko lang yung translation... Hehe.

39. If you could be anybody else in the world who would it be? Why?
Can’t think of a single person eh. Maybe, a cross between Angelina Jolie (astig, cool), Julia Roberts (charming, funny) and Geena Davis (smart and posh).
Ganun pa rin... :)

40. Batman o Superman?
I’m not into guys wearing tights under their undies. Hehe… Hmm… between the two, gusto ko si Superman.
Gusto ko na si Batman. Coz I like how Christian Bale portrayed Batman.

After more than 4 years napagtanto ko, corny ako noon, corny pa rin ako ngayon.

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I have something to tell you
And I know it won't be easy
I've been thinking these past few days
It might be time to leave
You're like a stranger
Then you're a lover
Never the same
Always hard to believe

I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Never knowing quite where I stand
I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Falling both ways nowhere to land
So constantly stranded
I can't understand it
This double life you've handed me
Is like the devil and the deep blue sea

If we go on much longer
If my doubts grow any stronger
Then I may have to let you go
If only to survive
Give me a reason
Why should I stay here
I've tried so hard
Just to keep love alive
I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Never knowing quite where I stand

I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Falling both ways nowhere to land
So constantly stranded
I can't understand it
This double life you've handed me
Is like the devil and the deep blue sea