Bakit ako PO ngayon?

Appraisal time once again.  Gaah...

Your psychology, follows your physiology.  So very true.

Alas, I am done with one sentence posts.  I think.

Desperately trying to deaden my senses...

Mastering the art of pushing away...

Is it a good enough reason to quit?

It's been a long, drawn out process...

I think someone spiked my water with caffeine.

Why am I posting one sentence posts?

Sometimes, having a very refined intuition can cause you pain.

I'm having the effects of caffeine without drinking anything caffeinated.

Sinagutan ko to dati last Aug 12, 2003 (in blue). Sasagutin ko uli (in green)... May nagbago kaya?

1. If you were to die in 10 seconds what would be the last things you would say?
Because the Lord is my Shepherd… Psalm 23.
It was a good life...

2. If you were a thing, ano ka?
A laptop.
Still a laptop.

3. Have you ever been in rehab?
Nyak! Hinde ko naman pinangarap yun…
Hinde pa rin...

4. Where is the strangest place you've had sex?
Anong tanong to?
Anong tanong to?

5. What would you do if you woke up as a member of the opposite sex?
Go to uncharted regions where no girl has gone before…
Magpa-spa...

6. If you were to be executed tonight, what would you request your last meal to be?
Meat lover’s pizza, Blueberry milkshake, Blueberry cheesecake and bottomless iced tea.
Ben and Jerry's New York Super Fudge Chunk Ice Cream

7. What is worse, being a crack whore or a whore's crack?
Pareho lang…
Crack whore.

8. Tingin ninyo, do penguins have knees?
Tanong ko kay Jinggoy…
More than 4 years na, hinde ko pa rin natatanong si Jinggoy

9. Did you ever pet a rat?
Ayoko naman ng daga!
Ayoko pa rin...

10. If you were a porno star, what would your porno star name be?
River… walang surname. Engk, hinde ako creative eh.
Delilah...

11. What's better, being born with wings or having wheels for legs?
With wings!
With wings pa rin.

12. Do you sometimes wish you were gay?
Hinde ko naman naisip yun…
Naisip kong maging gay man. Because all the good men are either taken or gay.

13. Which celebrity would you like to smack in the head? why?
Kobe Bryant. Stupid, stupid!
Heath Ledger. Stupid, stupid!

14. Anung klaseng food ka?
Pizza!!
Considered bang food ang ice cream?

15. How do you feel about body hair?
Depende, may binabagayan naman yan eh.
Depende kung nasaan...

16. If you could find out when you were going to die, would you?
Nope. Baka mapaaga dahil sa sobrang kaba. Hehe…
Maybe. Para mapilitan akong gawin ang mga gusto kong gawin.

17. Marcos o Erap?
Nyak…
Wala.

18. You're dead. You're having coffee with God. What do you ask?
What is the truth about religion, spirituality, the Bible and all those spaces in between?
How do You do it?

19. If you had to perform a strip tease, what song would you get naked to?
Loving you is easy ‘coz you’re beautiful… or any song by Kenny G. Hehe…
Super freak... ala Little Miss Sunshine. :)

20. Do you have to go pee right now?
Nope.
Nope.

22. If we were monkeys, would you eat bugs out of my hair?
Nope. I’m a classy monkey. Hehe…
Classy pa rin ako...

23. Ever thought of taking a bath with someone, sino?
Haha… For me to know and for you to find out!
Si Samson... (dahil ako si Delilah...)

24. Is committing suicide because of love a bad idea???
Oo naman no! You should not let other people decide on how you are going to act!
Natural...

25. If you were neck deep in shit and I threw a baseball at you would you duck?
Hinde no. OK lang ang bukol kesa naman deep shit!
Makakaduck ka pa ba nun?

26. If you were a candy what candy would you be?
Ferrero Rocher.
M&Ms... Melts in your mouth not in your hands...

27. Can I bite you? Please?!
Aray ko. Basta wala kang rabies.
Aray... Masakit.

28. Describe your most embarrassing experience.
Sobrang dami eh. Nalaglag sa bus. Nalaglag yung sword ko in front of the guest of honor. Napaiyak on stage in front of many, many (as in sobra) people. Madami pa but I chose to block it from my memory… :)
Marami pang nadagdag dyan...

29. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?
Psychologist… Hehe…
Syempre pareho ang sagot...

30. If you could instantly change one aspect of your body, what would it be?
Pumayat ng konti.
Pumayat pa rin...

31. What is/are your favorite bands?
Jars of Clay, Matchbox20, Bond
Jars of Clay, Switchfoot, Lifehouse, Train

32. What is your favorite website?
Google, Yahoo
Google, Kerygma

33. Suggest a book for me to read.
Inspirational books and books on spirituality (by Paulo Coelho, Deepak Chopra, the Dalai Lama, Norman Vincent Peale, Thich Nhat Hahn, etc…)
Plus books ni Bo Sanchez, Malcolm Gladwell, John Maxwell, Joel Osteen, Tony Robbins, Wayne Dyer, etc...

34. Have you ever lied to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Hehe…
Hehe pa rin... Hehe...

35. Have you ever cheated on someone you were going out with?
Nope.
Nope.

36. If you could relive any period of your life, what would it be?
High school! Walang masyadong iniisip sa buhay.
Oct-Nov 2007

37. If you were an animal, what would it be and why?
Dog. Loyal ako eh.
Dog pa rin. May rabies ako eh.

38. What's your favorite quote/saying?
Gam zu le tovah! (This, too, is for the best!)
Gam zu le tovah! (Everything that happens is for the greatest good.) Iniba ko lang yung translation... Hehe.

39. If you could be anybody else in the world who would it be? Why?
Can’t think of a single person eh. Maybe, a cross between Angelina Jolie (astig, cool), Julia Roberts (charming, funny) and Geena Davis (smart and posh).
Ganun pa rin... :)

40. Batman o Superman?
I’m not into guys wearing tights under their undies. Hehe… Hmm… between the two, gusto ko si Superman.
Gusto ko na si Batman. Coz I like how Christian Bale portrayed Batman.

After more than 4 years napagtanto ko, corny ako noon, corny pa rin ako ngayon.

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I have something to tell you
And I know it won't be easy
I've been thinking these past few days
It might be time to leave
You're like a stranger
Then you're a lover
Never the same
Always hard to believe

I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Never knowing quite where I stand
I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Falling both ways nowhere to land
So constantly stranded
I can't understand it
This double life you've handed me
Is like the devil and the deep blue sea

If we go on much longer
If my doubts grow any stronger
Then I may have to let you go
If only to survive
Give me a reason
Why should I stay here
I've tried so hard
Just to keep love alive
I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Never knowing quite where I stand

I'm caught between goodbye
and I love you
Falling both ways nowhere to land
So constantly stranded
I can't understand it
This double life you've handed me
Is like the devil and the deep blue sea

Wala akong mai-blog eh...

I dreamt of a large body of water two nights ago. The water was dark green and murky with lots of garbage. I was struggling to reach the surface but I wasn't drowning. It seemed I could breathe under water.

http://www.astrostarcharts.com/article_interpreting_water_dreams.html

Dreams about Water

by Stephanie Davies

Having water in your dreams is a very common occurrence. Whether you are dreaming of an ocean, a pond, or even a glass of water, it seems everyone dreams of water at some point in their lives. And in your dreams, water alludes to the most basic parts of ourselves - emotion. Water most always represents our waking emotion. Think about the dreams of water you have had...was the water crashing ocean waves? Then chances are your waking emotions were pretty rocky and heavy as well. Was the water dark, murky, and stagnant? Then you may well have been depressed or worried before you went to sleep.

The condition of, and placement of the water in your dream is the reflection of your waking mood. Cloudy swirling water may mean confusion, and clear crisp clean water may mean that you were very happy about something.

The only cases where water will not reflect upon the dreamers mood is when the water is part of a larger dream symbol, such as a hurricane, or a whirlpool. Dreaming of a hurricane may indicate a level or chaos in your life, or even on the more obvious level - that you are frightened of situations you cannot control. Dreaming of a whirlpool means that you are afraid that you will be overcome by a person or situation in your life.

Dreaming of fish in water however, is a different dream symbol. Dreaming of fish almost always represents money matters. So if you are dreaming of a tank or pond of bright healthy fish it may mean that you will be getting a large amount of money soon, or that financial matters are currently going very well for you. On the other hand, if the pond or tank water is dirty or mucky, and the fish are dead or dying, this means you are very afraid of your money situation.

Water, much like the emotion it represents, can be an ever changing element, and while the dream may indicate those things which are at the top of your subconscious, you may not immediately realize what the dream represents. Keep an eye out for your emotions, and what that particular dream may have meant to you!

http://www.iloveulove.com/spirituality/kabbalah/kabbadreams.htm

Breathing Underwater:
This indicates that you are not being dominated by the limitations of the five senses-a very positive indication.

Insensitive
Jann Arden


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How do you cool your lips
After a summer's kiss
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss
How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you'd know anywhere

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
The casual goodbyes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive

How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush
How do you free your soul
After you've found a friend
How do you teach your heart
It's a crime to fall in love again

Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
Some advice to give on how to be
Insensitive

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
The casual goodbyes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive

Anak ng patola. Kelan ba ako huling nagmura?

Over You
Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

I've been tagged by Gene. :)

My Top 10 Overrated Things:
10. Crab, lobster, and oyster
9. Showbiz chismis
8. Poor me syndrome (get over yourself. no one has a monopoly of pain and frustration.)
7. iPhone
6. Photographs in wallets
5. Lost
4. Jumbo Restaurant (mas masarap sa Magdaragat o sa Dampa.)
3. Valentine's Day
2. Vertu
1. Abstract art

I'm tagging eyesonly, gwen and asereth.

I'm still waiting for my divine tadyak. If I wake up tomorrow morning on the floor instead of on the bed, that means my question has been answered. Either that or someone stole my bed when I was sleeping.

My first ever blog post was June 2, 2002 over at deadjournal. I've been blogging on and off for the past 5 years. I've been browsing my posts at DJ and I found this. Fufufu. I was as much as a nutcase then as I am now. And I don't even remember writing it.

The Shadow Proves the Sunshine
Switchfoot
Nothing Is Sound

Sunshine won’t you be my mother?
Sunshine come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

Crooked soul trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain, when
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
When the shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Oh Lord why did you forsake me
Oh Lord don’t be far away, away
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord don’t look the other way

I’m a crooked soul trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain, when
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
When the shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain, when
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
When the shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Shine on me
Let my shadows prove the sunshine

Harness The Power of Decision
Excerpt from Awaken the Giant Within
By Anthony Robbins

These are the six quick keys to help you harness the power of decision, the power that shapes your experience of life every moment that you live it:

1. Remember the true power of making decisions. It's a tool you can use in any moment to change your entire life. The minute you make a new decision, you set in motion a new cause, effect, direction, and destination for your life. You literally begin to change your life the moment you make a new decision. Remember that when you start feeling overwhelmed, or when you feel like you don't have a choice, of when things are happening "to" you, you can change it all if you just stop and decide to do so. Remember, a real decision is measured by the fact that you've taken new action. If there's no action, you haven't truly decided.

2. Realize that the hardest step in achieving anything is making a true commitment - a true decision. Carrying out your commitment is often much easier than the decision itself, so make your decisions intelligently, but make them quickly. Don't labor forever over the question of how or if you can do it. Studies have shown that the most successful people make decisions rapidly because they are clear on their values and what they really want for their lives. The same studies show that they are slow to change their decisions, if at all. On the other hand, people who fail usually make decisions slowly and change their minds quickly, always bouncing back and forth. Just decide!

Realize that decsion making is a kind of act in itself, so a good definition for a decision might be "information acted upon." You know you've truly made a decision when action flows from it. It becomes a cause set in motion. Often the effect of making a decision helps create the attainment of a larger goal. A critical rule I've made for myself is never to leave the scene of a decision without first taking a specific action towards its realization.

3. Make decisions often. The more decisions you make, the better you're going to become at making them. Muscles get stronger with use, and so it is with your decision-making muscles. Unleash you power right now by making some decision you've been putting off. You won't believe the energy and excitement it will create in your life!

4. Learn from your decisions. There's no way around it. At times, you're going to screw up, no matte what you do. And when the inevitable happens, instead of beating yourself to the ground, learn something. Ask yourself, "What's good about this? What can I learn from this?" This "failure" may be unbelievable gift in disguise if you use it to make better decisions in the future. Rather than focus on the short term setback, choose instead to learn lessons that can save you time, money, or pain, and that will give you the ability to succeed in the future.

5. Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach. One you've decided who you want to be as a person, for example, don't get stuck on the means of achieving it. It's the end you're dafter. Too often, in deciding what they want for their lives, people pick the best way they know at the time - they make a map - but then don't stay open to alternate routes. Don't become rigid in your approach. Cultivate the art of flexibility.

6. Enjoy making decisions. You must know that in any moment, a decision you make can change the course of your life forever: the very next person you stand behind in line or sit next to on an airplane, the very next phone call you make or receive, the very next movie you see or book you read or page you turn could be the one single thing that cause the floodgates to open, and all of the things that you've been waiting for to fall into place.

If you really want your life to be passionate, you need to live with this attitude of expectancy. Years ago, I made what seemed like a small decision, and it has powerfully shaped my life. I decided to do a seminar in Denver, Colorado. The decision has caused me to meet a lady named Becky. Her last name now is Robbins, and she is definitely one of the greatest gifts of my life. On that same trip, I decided to write my first book, which is now published in eleven languages around the world. A few days later, I decided to conduct a seminar in Texas, and after working for a week to fill my own program, the promoter didn't pay me for the event - he skipped town. The obvious person to talk to was the public relations agent he had hired, a woman who had similar woes. That woman became my literary agent and helped to get that first book published. As a result, I have the privilege of sharing this story with you today.

At one time, I also decided to take on a business partner. Choosing not to investigate his character in advance was a poor decision on my part. Within a year, he'd misappropriated a quarter of million dollars and had run my corporation $758,000 in debt while I spent my life on the road doing more than 200 seminars. Fortunately, though, I learned from my poor decision and made a better one. In spite of advice from all the experts around me that the only way I could survive would be to declare bankruptcy, I decided to find a way to turn things around, and I created one the greater successes of my life. I took my company to a whole new level, and what I learned from that experience not only created my long-term business success, but also provided many of the distinctions for the Neuro-Associative Conditioning and the Destiny Technologies that you'll be learning in this book.

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing."

- Helen Keller