I'm still waiting for my divine tadyak. If I wake up tomorrow morning on the floor instead of on the bed, that means my question has been answered. Either that or someone stole my bed when I was sleeping.

My first ever blog post was June 2, 2002 over at deadjournal. I've been blogging on and off for the past 5 years. I've been browsing my posts at DJ and I found this. Fufufu. I was as much as a nutcase then as I am now. And I don't even remember writing it.

The Shadow Proves the Sunshine
Switchfoot
Nothing Is Sound

Sunshine won’t you be my mother?
Sunshine come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

Crooked soul trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain, when
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
When the shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Oh Lord why did you forsake me
Oh Lord don’t be far away, away
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord don’t look the other way

I’m a crooked soul trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain, when
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
When the shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain, when
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
When the shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Yeah, shine on me
Shine on me
Let my shadows prove the sunshine

Switchfoot will have a concert in Manila on September 10. I have waited years to see them live in concert and now that they'll have one in Manila. But, I'm now based in Singapore. I have already waited 5 years, what's another year or two?

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On our way home from the airport this afternoon, I heard one of my favorite songs that I haven't heard in months. The first order of business when I got home was to listen to Train's My Private Nation album.

When I Look To The Sky
Train
My Private Nation

When it rains it pours and opens doors
And floods the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry
And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love
That have to say goodbye

And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that won't seem to let me go

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

And every word I didn't say that caught up in some busy day
And every dance on the kitchen floor we didn't have before
And every sunset that we'll miss I'll wrap them all up in a kiss
And pick you up in all of this when I sail away

While I float upon this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that I hope will never leave

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way

Whether I am up or down or in or out or just plain overhead
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings
to see me over everything that life may send me
When I am hoping it won't pass me by

And when I feel like there is no one that will ever know me
there you are to show me

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

When I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here
When I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here